This question may have already been answered, however, I'm new to the platform and still trying to to watch everything on "Ray". When is Ray's of Light expected to release?

I want to learn everything there is to know about frequency, consciousness, astral projection, how to activate the pineal glad, meditation, inner healing, etc... I have always felt empty in my life since my dad passed tragically in a trucking accident in 1998. I was 13. I have never believed in any religion. I feel they are just cults trying to control us. I also have never had a true belief in a god. Not that I don't believe in the possibility, I feel there could be more than one god. I have never been able to find my true purpose in life. I find myself roaming through life like a zombie with no direction or destination. With these feelings, I have found it hard to be the best father I can be. None the less, I want to open my mind and clear my conscience and open my energy within to be the best father, husband, and more importantly, the best human being possible. I am open to all opinions.
Thank you all in advance.

Where can I find the pyramid code documents for free? Or will I need to purchase from Amazon?