NEXT LIVE EVENT!

I would so, so love this. I even have a long story I will tell at a later date, regarding this. Right now I gotta get my day started, though.

Is this a film? I keep searching, but can't find anything. Is there a title to look for or am I just getting this wrong?

Just asking because I left religion years ago, which led to find much better stuff. Learned a lot. So if this is a film, it'd be interesting to watch.

Well, there's some negativity to hear, but only to explain the positive. :)

I helped a lady become more positive by dating her for the longest, April . She grew up with a very negative family, including her Mother. So she didn't really trust me for the longest, but eventually I earned it. Along with my Mom, who loved her and she loves my Mother.

And I only met her when I moved near 3,000 miles away to find a job, in Memphis, TN. I'm originally from Portland, OR and my Mom was staying there with a guy she met on a job (tile laying) in Portland. Eventually, I hated the place (lots of reasons) so I headed back home. Along with that April followed me back and, if she hadn't, I would've missed my bus (w/ Greyhound). I called her to say bye, but I then saw her getting off the bus and into the station, to tell me it was about to leave. I waa so amazed and thankful to have someone to ride back with.

Eventually, her Mom talked into leaving Poetland while she attending college, which she still regrets. Now she stays in Florida. She wants to return, but I find it important to be near her Mom in her final years. She does love her Mom, of course, si she needs to find a way to stay up there. Her family won't let her stay with them. Anyhow, I will always love her and still chat with her as a friend, trying to get her more positive.

Now on to my second story, that did that for me...

Before I met April, in Memphis, I met Faye who worked at the mall where my Mom did, and Mom loved her. She is such a sweet lady and my first girlfriend, ever, I believe. I was just turning 21 and, while I can't drink anymore (health), I loved it at the time.

Anyhow, I dated her for a bit then a lady that came into my job that I found lovely. And after checking out she did stuff to hang out a bit longer, hoping I'd get her number, filling out forms. So, I did and we talked for a while before I hurt Faye, leaving her. Anybow, this was a seriously rich, snobby lady with whom the relationship didn't last long. No story with any importance. I then dated two other ladies there, with the last one being April.

Anyhow, although I hurt Faye, her sister (Sunni) stayed my friend. I have no idea why, but it lasted for years. And a few times I had to change my number or email address. I'd forget to tell her, but she found me every time.

So, this lasted for around 20 years and I was in my 40s. I eventually asked Sunni if she could get me in touch with Faye so I could apologize. She was so happy about that and got us in touch on Facebook, as Faye prefers texting rather than talking by voice.

It was so cool and she said she apologized me years ago, but appreciates me reaching out. Then, she said her Mom had passed and explained how hard that was to deal with. But, because of that, she asked if she could come to visit me. I said yes, but I feel we jumped too fast into another relationship. I had gotten too negative over the years, always yelling about stupid shit. Then, I broke up with her again. I still feel stupid, but things got better.

One day she texted me, deciding to stay my friend anyway. She didn't hate having to be in Portland however. Unlike Memphis, she can ride the public bus system and go anywhere. She's never drove and won't (not sure why), but had to depend on her suster to get anywhere. So she loves it there, because of that, and has been places which I've never even knew one could go to on the bus. And when I'd get all pissy, while together, she'd just leave and text later to see if I'd calmed down. She'd return, but I never understood that, at the time. I could've made it work instead, if I thought more clearly.

So, at first, I apologized and tried getting back together with her. She said no, she's just gonna be a friend. I tried over and over, but that never worked out. However, somehow, by staying my friend and talking to me, even when I was negative, I ended up becoming more positive. Always in a great mood. Even during tough times, I know how to stay positive. All because of her wonderful self and we still talking every few days, checking on each other. I thanked her several times over.

So I want to see if I can do the same for April, by doing as Faye did for me. Just listening and giving me her ideas. I shall find out.

Finally, however, I'm on disb. and had to resign from a job I absolutely loved. Stuck inside when not with someone to be with me elsewhere. I had to move in my Dad, but he's passed, so it's just my step-mom now. Mom and I are trying find a better place, because she's not safest to be around (another lobg story). My brain as some injury on the right side. Started with two seizures 14 yrs ago, tge first after drinking. Now I just have odd episodes that are impossible to explain. The docs want to give me parmaceuticals which have only make things worse. Or try surgery which I refuse, it's just adding injury to injury. So I stopped trusting them and trusting in Spirit to lead me to what I need to do. I've heard of people healing from issues way worse than mine. And that includes the author of a book called, 'Whole Btain Living,' I found and am reading. That book may help or I may find other, just natural ways to help me. Only trust natural remedies (like herbal teas and such), because I've used them all my life. Always, *always,* worked better than pharmaceuticals. And then there's healing through energy, I'm trying to learn more about.

So that's my stories, I hope they aren't too long. Thanks for this wonderful place. Way better than Facebook, that I just had to leave with all the distractions.