I want to be mentally free from my demons Is that so hard to reach??❓❔

Wraped my mind around her ways of thinking on some levels But i Love Her I just wish i could help her to wake up and actually see yet she shuts me down everytime guess shes given up and dosent understand she could be come one with everything so to speak I Still Love & care I Miss My Twin Sister Damn It I Hate That She Is Gone Her daughter is without her mother and her Dad just died a few.weeks ago she dosent live with me shes happy tho 4 the most part i want to be there 4 her i need to be there for her i need to get sober so i can begin to be as shes needed me to be for so long now For her & 4 me mainly But 4 me 1st because i cant be there for her if i cant get myself where i need to be or to at least become totally content with my life and not as if theres something be i know i need to do but havent still I want to be rid of this drug use intierly i say even if i did have anr done id still like to go into somewhere so i can get the hang of a new way of living I WANT HEALED!

My credit score is 577 thanks to a guy that stoll from me and got some loans in my name thats why my credit is so low in which hes still gotten away with it i can keep myself from doing bad things because i know id loose my shit confronting him face to face He knows i know and ive told him i wont forget some day ill get things made right Because ive had to suffer because of my credit score Not being good enough for ANR THERAPY to have it done yet and still 577 ill be working to better it starting litterally 2mro prehaps if my Mom would stop being so hard headed and try to see i only need her help to become free from what shes wanted me to quit using now for years then maybe she will cosign But ive tried and ive tried She Just dosent get it Although if my Dad Was ALive He Woulda Already Helped Me Yo Have ANR Done I know he woulda i know he cared and wanted to see me suceed My Mom on the other hand i cant understand she is some what an evil soul in her own ways IVE NEVER UNDERSTOOD NOR

Be bugged with Thinking about getting High i already know i remember how it was when i went to jail for over 30 days and when i got out i was trying to stay clean yet i couldnt get it out of my head it was like i was FEENING FOR IT SO MUCH SO I JUST GAVE IN (Thats what im scared of) truly scared of Look up ANR THERAPY ITS A TRUE ANSWER TO SO MANY DRUG ADDICTS ITS THE ANSWER TO HEALING FROM OPIATES Use Period I will keep hoping and searching for a way i can get this treatment done so i can be mentally free NO Cravings THATS MY BIGGEST DEAL I NEED MORE THEN UD THINK SO I CAN BE FREEEEEEE please help me find my way to have this done my mind is not as it was when i was born i had a TBI lack of oxygen to my brain But im still alive I can feel the light way to go i can accomplish getting in touch with thyn self & then some as im going to work on as well i just need A Boost No cravings is that boost ANR THERAPY is the way i can Become fully FREE FROM THIS DEVIL i must find a Way u see my cre

My Mind from wanting to of just constantly having wanting to use in my mind somewhere ITS SAD THAT ANR THERAPY IS SO EXPENSIVE BUT I GET IT THEY WANT US ALL DRUGED UP & MINDS CLOWDED SO WE STAY ASLEEP I am Ready To Live Tho I Wish i had a somone that i could ask for advice on just How to Open My Chakras my3rd Eye thats what im going to focus on after i get sober that & meditating @least once a day if not 2 But @least one time per day & idk But my gut seems to think that opening my chakras is somwhat impossible at this point die to all the poison with in My body I MISS MY TWIN SISTER TARA.LEE She Died From Heroin Overdose Going on 4 years ago Now & i still couldn't shake it thats sad to trust me i know i know I WANT TO LIVE I WANT TO LIVE IN KONA HAWAII GO BACK where i died & maybe Find MySelF Once More Thats My Game Plan Im Aware I AM all that ever was & all that will be I Am able to do anything i want if i want to i know i can become clean & stay ALL IM GONNA HATE IS HOW MUCH ID STIL

& when you wake up Your like you was before you ever started to use the drugs IT TAKES U BACK TO PRE USE & YOU WILL HAVE NO CRAVINGS AT ALL 2 ME THATS THE ANSWER I SUFFER FROM A TBI I JUST COULD REALLY USE ANR THERAPY TO BECOME FULLY FREE FROM FENTANYL FREE FROM THESE DEMONS & DEVIL SHIT FREE & 2 Because its so expensive idk if ill ever be able to figure out a way to have it done Thats Another Reason Why I SEE It As A Dream Yet I wont Give Up i must find a way because i deserve to be free feom cravings and feeling like i need it I WANT TO BECOME FULLY FREE OF THIS DEVIL SO I CAN LIVE MY LIFE AS I NEED TO & JUST TO BE ABLE TO HAVE THE FEELING OF NOT HAVING TO HAVE TO THINK ABOUT USING OMG I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND HOW IT BE LIKE ANYMORE IVE BEEN ON DRUGS SO LONG I WANT TO GET CLEAN & IM JUST ABOUT TO IF NOT SOONER THEN JAN 1ST IT BE ON JAN 1ST I 4 SOME REASON STILL FEEL AS IF ILL GET A HAIR UP MY BUTT AND GO SOONER YET EVEN AFTER TREATMENT ID STILL NEED ANR THERAPY SO I CAN BE ABLE TO FRE

Dont have $19,000 dollars cash to pay to have it done which is so so SAD THAT IT COSTS SO MUCH TO GET DONE IT TRULY IS SAD BECAUSE IF IT WAS MORE AFFORDABLE THEN PEOPLE WOULD GET IT DONE BUT THEN THEY WOULD BE SOBER & THAT BE LESS MONEY ON DRUGS THAT THEY WOULD SPEND THAT & THEN THEY WOULD BE CLEAR MINDED & ABLE TO THINK 4 ONCE CLEARLY & THAT WOULD BE LESS $$$$$ THE RICH WOULD MAKE SO HELL NO Its Got to be such a high price that a Good kindhearted person such as myself can Not Afford :-( I consider it A Dream 1 because they would put u to sleep

Swinging on swings with her & there was Blue Butterflies All Around Us It was Beautiful & the colors were very bright it was just Different Peaceful loving Feeling I WANT TO BE SOBER & LEARN TO OPEN ALL MY CHAKRAS I NEED TO I KNOW THIS You see im just worried about how its going to be for me after rehab i feel as if i will still think about using and i know ill still fean out for it as if i really want it BUT I WON'T NEED IT YET I KNOW ITS STILL GOING TO BE BUGGING ME SO MUCH IVE BEEN TO REHAB BEFORE Now the only difference is is that i do want more i do want to become sober and live my life and help others to SEE I understand alot more then i even know what to do with I know i need to heal myself to become more for myself im ready to I JUST WISH I COULD Have something Called ANR THERAPY look it up its Heaven WELL ITS A DREAM OF MINE I WANT TO GET DONE MORE THEN ANYTHING I MEED IT I DESERVE IT I SHOULD BE ABLE TO HAVE IT YET I Dont have good enough credit to get it done yet & I defini

I Belive It I Really Do I AM Ready I Wish I Was Able To Join You & Experience Your Missions!

I Need A Little Guidence Tho In My Life Ive Been Addicted To FentanyL Now For Years Ive Been Wanting To QUIT For A Long Time Now I Still Do & Quite Homestly I Am Going To Go To Treatment Here Very Soon I was waiting for my insurance to switch & that will happen January 1st Although i Quite Honestly Think Im Just Going To Go On Ahead & Get into A Rehab Sooner Because im Sick of this Day to Day BS! Ive finally learned to Listen To my inner Voice My GUT Ive Finally Learned that its Never Wrong & ive just Got To Listen Instead Of Hear it Yet Ignore it like ive always done.. Also I died Once While I Was In Kona Hawaii I Almost Died, When i woke up My mom was There & my bf at the time was there Everytime they walked out of the room id Forget Who They Was Yet The 1st Thing Out Of My Mouth When I Saw My Bf Was Wheres Breanna That Was His Daughter That Had Died Before I Ever Met Him I Remember Swingi-