NEXT LIVE EVENT!

I have been seeing articles about palm lines. M's, x's crescent moons, etc. Is this all hog wash? Don't we all have these lines? I have them all, on my left palm I have double. My daughter and grand daughters have them. I don't want to delve into research of something that has no significance. My question is directed at tls

How does one realize their "divine" will or purpose?

Maybe someone can help me figure this out. Many many times ifeelas if I'm not really alive. Like I am "looking" back remembering, or am "reading" my life book flipping the pages. And for my entire life I have watched how people act, how they ARE, and cannot understand HOW they can do things they do to others, or how they treat others, and feel like I'm not in the right generation or planet. ( stupid, or crazy?)Now, due to 23 n me, I find I am closely, within 11generations, blood related to at least 32 very evil famous people, English royalty, heads of state, presidents, even scientists, and am totally aghast, shocked, that I, ME, am any way related to such people.
My questions are with all this evilness in 4 sides of my family, am I inherently psychotic and evil as they are? Does the afore mentioned feelings mean I have inherited the psychosis of these evil people? Am I crazy, evil? Just asking