I'm exhausted.. no energy.. its so hard i catch myself having old behavior here and there.. and I don't want the old me that I use to be. I was just just as blinded as most of this world. But being self-aware since my NDE it doesn't make the old habits die. I meditate and really recently (not sure if i was dreaming this or was zoning out. I dreamt that I was crucified. I felt panicked and opened my eyes & stood up and di something else. mow i feel bothered within.. I am pretty sure that that wasn't exactly how i suppose to end my meditate and now my mind is foggy and clouded and nonstop headache throughout the day. I suddenly lost my momentum, I don't understand and I'm new to my spiritual journey its 28 days since i had stopped breathing and found my soul and now i am on the path to healing. again.. I'm exhausted.
