I need to resubscribe I am behind on my billing to view the program Jason Shurkha. I need to speak to Ray Directly over his disclosure series episode 4. I know who Ray is; he is the real authentic second coming of Jesus Christ. Not a false dress up. I need to speak with him directly. The woman mother warrior aka black widow is ShaVannah Faye Short whom I have been cyber stalking on Instagram for 10 years. I recently tried to turn myself into the FBI over it twice. Both times failed on me. I'm unable to move on and completely let this woman go. However, I have been trying to give her her space. I'm not going to her place unless she comes all this way to get me and willingly wants to get back with me -- if that is ever really going to happen. Ty for trying to get her the help she needs. I really need help, and because of my inappropriate obsession with her, she needs help also and until you came along she was unable to get it. I need your help and guidance too but most of all I need your forgiveness and even more so hers. She's a proud mother of two, and that's what made her get scared and unfollowed me when we reconnected on Instagram some recent time ago. I almost attained her forgiveness and willingness to start over with me, and I said something about her kids. Please know that I only want to be a Father to them and I will never do anything to harm this woman especially not her kids. I want to be her husband. She's been married widowed and divorced three times. She may be currently married again and even my mom said not in 200 years will she ever get back with me. I really need this woman back in my life. I will speak to her husband also if that is necessary. If the answer is absolutely no my soul will never truly rest because I am unable to move on. Of course Jehovah your father in heaven is fully aware that I backslid recently because trying to move from her on on social media with other women which was my attempt to let go of my obsession with her. I'm finding this increasingly difficult and not all of these women online are good women. My final messaged to her spooked her heavily. I was set to die on the 13th of January earlier this year due to my actions in December of last year. I was catfished and wasn't fully aware of what I was getting into with strange women who I didn't know online. I wasn't fully aware of the dangers of social media until now even as a grown man. ShaVannah isn't like that and is a good woman who I have driven mad. I'm very sorry about this but I am willing to come right again and get back on track with you Lord Jesus. If she ever does take me back, I will fear her like I fear you. It's everything that I promised her on my Instagram page. She may keep parental controls on me by keeping me off the web if she ever accepts me into her home. I both read and understood the warnings of this in the Book of Proverbs and fully understand your fear and wrath over this according to the Wisdom of both King Solomon and this woman. Please tell her that I am a completely changed man since she last knew me and deserve a final chance.
