Hi ,yes I'm very aware I'm in a human vessel and it's not got anything to do with self love, my human vessel is sick, I can't eat, im falling all the time, im very weak from not eating, and from a diagnosis which I don't think is fully correct of having fibromyalgia, I think I have M.S but I'm struggling to get answers due to our health care system and the costs for tests, as I'm on a disabilities pension, which is below the Australian poverty line.
My shell is dying, that's what it feels like.
I don't care what I look like on the outside I know my soul or whatever you want to call it, is good and kind ,I don't care what I look like with 1 arm, it's more the frustration of not fully being able to do things I could with 2 arms.
Thankyou for your reply though I appreciate it 🙂
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26 Nov 16:05
Christy Overton I didn't end up finishing my story, my story is a bit different to yours, I wasn't molded by anyone or myself to be a certain way, what happened was a lot of S.A from childhood, right up to a couple of yrs ago, by many different offenders. I then married abusive partners, I seemed to have a target on me, which I have learned about why now, but I'd attract sociopath and psychopaths 3 failed marriages, and 1 serious bf, each with narcissistic traits as part of their mental health conditions, which really messed me up badly. After losing my dad I didn't have a good male role model and my mum had, had a very trauma based life herself, she wasn't very present, and she couldn't show physical love, she couldn't even cuddle me, I know she loved me looking back and I understand why she was like she was, but as a child- Teen and onwards I didn't understand forr a very long time. I kinda felt like I raised myself, as she would not be around much and after my dad died it was